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Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Have a Breath




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I hope one day to understand the openness
To understand the honesty
To understand the hope that comes from talking with my mouth and heart open

I wish one day to feel at home without feeling at risk
To feel like I can rest and not be attacked for my slow breathing

It's not only about the feelings, it's also about the results
It's about the thoughts and flavours of the wind

You are not seen just because someone stands next to you
You are not alive just because you stand next to someone
You are not open just because your hands face the sky

There is no resting place for the mind that has legs
There is only ground to run on and mountains to jump over

You are not my creation
I can not destroy you


-Cam Novak

Friday, April 12, 2013

It

Feel the grit of your teeth.
Touch it as you bring your tongue into your mouth after licking your lips.
Let the spit moisten the tiny hairs above your lip and wipe it off only partially.
The light will strike you in such a way as to strike me.
You've not existed like this for very long, yet it is my memory of you.
It is you, and you are my thoughts and not the flesh you own

I've had thoughts about you , you know? I think about if you think about me.
I breath out thinking you're doing the same and if you're reflecting on the sheets we've warmed and the sky's we've looked at
It's a dagger in my mind but i feel like it's your mind, our mind.
The space in between our minds is like the waves hitting the rocks
You've become my launch pad and my cement shoes

Has the time gone or have you?
Are you a fleeting memory or constant reminder?
The resolve is not your face, it's your smile.
Has there been water in your heart? Let it drown me, let it quench my thirst.

Sometimes it's you and sometimes it's me but it always was us.
For me anyways....


Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Montreal isn't the best for Cycling... yet

(Screenshot from I BIKE the short film-> http://vimeo.com/59112040 )


Spring is here and Montreal is starting its yearly buzz of Bixi banter and cycle path discussions and although I'm happy and excited that finally there is no excuse for the people around me to say that it's too cold to ride their bike, there's something that just doesn't sit right with me. Yes, it's that little gut feeling that makes me feel like not everything is okay.
What is that feeling? Well, it's that bikes are "just bikes"and are treated like a sort of toy rather than a way of changing the way the city works and looks. There's a sort of condescension when ever people talk about the role bikes play in this city and although it may not be everyone's cup of tea, I see bikes as the most feasible way of reorganizing our city.

Now, if you already think that everything is okay and that we don't need to change anything then maybe this isn't for you to read, but as someone who has come to analyze every waking moment of life, I can't help but share my perspective on how majorly we screwed up a lot of things and how cycling could fix some of it.

Before I get started, I'd like to say that my angle with all this is one of economic development and sustainability through a more balanced transportation world. I think it would be naive to say that cars shouldn't exist or that we should some how all be riding fixies to work. But I do think that there is a massive over consumption of those delicious fossil fuels, and if we can adjust how we consume them- which would be more like a glass of wine every couple days and not like water- then maybe we can save ourselves from a total disaster...maybe.

What Bikes Are Not:

A Hipster Fad That No One Should Care About

Sure, hipsters are running wild in the streets on their "vintage cruisers" and "badass fixies" and sometimes you just want to smack them, but they are playing an important roll in our visual landscape. You see, cars are REALLY cool to most people and this is not only because of the incredible marketing engine that the auto industry has but also because we see way more cars than bikes every day. Imagine for one second if every car advertisement you saw would be an ad for a bike, don't you think the city would look a little bit different? What if every parked car was a bike? I think it's no exaggeration to say that if healthier food was put on the table, we would all be eating healthier.


Dangerous

I think one of the saddest things I hear regularly is that bikes are dangerous and that people don't want to ride them because they are afraid of getting hit by a car. If we could just take a moment to reflect on this, that would be great.
Why should the safe mode of transport be put second behind the dangerous one? Yes, streets are built for cars I know, but since when are we  in a world based on devolution? Are we not for the most part interested in creating a more comfortable and safe place for everyone? If thats the case, then the car should be put secondary on the street hierarchy (if there even is one) and there should be an immense push to not only get more people on bikes but to encourage safer behaviour in cars. A big task I know, but an important one. It's about transitioning away from victim blaming and reducing the presence of things causing the harm.

An Opportunity to be an Asshole

We've all heard the person who says, " All cyclists do is clog up traffic and act like idiots. They need to  be controlled not encouraged!" Apart from being very frustrating to hear and NOT TRUE, there's a deep misunderstanding about how people on bikes behave in traffic. For example, from a car you could see someone swerving and maybe looking reckless, when in reality, they are trying to miss a pot hole the size of a watermelon that will toss them off their bike if they hit it. You see, we cyclists don't exactly have the front and rear suspension you have, or the air bags or even a windshield, so when it's rainy and windy, it's in rainy and windy IN OUR FACE and this sometimes makes us have to act a certain way. 
Even though we may look like assholes sometimes, our intentions are nothing more than to get where we need to go safely. What's that expression? "Don't judge a book by it's cover" ?


What Bikes Are:

A Tool not a Toy

I'm not sure how many times I've had to explain what I've done with my bike, but it strikes me as bizarre that this incredibly useful TOOL is being written off as a TOY. I'm not sure it it's anyone's fault necessarily  but I see a serious mental block in people's heads when it comes to what they can do on their bike. Winter biking, bike couriers, cargo bikes, bike tours, food delivery by bike, are all concepts that have existed for a long time yet somehow people still ask the question 'How did you do it on your bike?"
BECAUSE WE HAVE BRAINS THAT ALLOW US TO BE CREATIVE! THAT'S HOW!
Maybe that's a bit harsh, but I think we need to take a step back and really asses where we are as people  if putting a sandwich in a messenger bag during the winter to deliver it, is a difficult concept to understand.

A Way of Connecting with the City

How often have you felt alone? How often have you felt lost? How often have you felt disconnected from the city? If you've answered "often" to any of these questions, you need to get on a bike. Why? Because smelling the air instead of your car air freshner is maybe all you need in order to feel more at ease in the city. There's an expression that goes something like, " Don't expect different results from the same action." and I think this rings true about this situation. How do you expect to connect with a city if you can't connect with it when your body feels like it needs to? To be able to stop and hug your friend on your way to work if you run into them, or to stop and look at the graffiti for a moment because it makes you happy. These moments are precious and cycling encourages interaction with the city and the people who live in it.

A Universal in a World of Limits

Bikes do not serve one purpose and people have proven this time and time again. The things that people have done on bikes specifically designed for certain things and with bikes that aren't designed for anything, are incredible in their complexity and their simplicity. To be able to use one thing for so many actions is unique and should be recognized. With my bike I can deliver huge packages, find a conversation topic at a party where I don't know anyone and stay in shape all without subscribing to any sort of routine or tribe. In a time where almost everything we buy has planned obsolescence and has a limited use unless you buy more, the bike rules all.


What Bikes Can Be:

 Now this is what's exciting....

Sure, people have written blog posts time and time again about what bikes can do and how they can change the world blah blah blah , but I think that there's a missing link in why it hasn't actually happened. The problem is that most cycling advocates seem to believe that the solution is in the individual riding a bike where as I believe the solution lies in the economic development of the bike.

The city unfortunately talks more in money than in beliefs or values so to succeed in such a world, you need to talk their language. This is where I come in.

There is an immense potential to create a sustainable and profitable transportation system in Montreal and it's not complicated, it's just problem solving and rearranging an already existing network of people and businesses.

There Should not be any Deliveries by Car Downtown

After running a bike courier company for almost 5 years, I know a thing or two about logistics and I can tell you right now that there is no better tool or ressource to move things quickly and efficiently than a person on a bike. There is no reason why a car should be allowed to pick up a package to bring it five blocks away downtown. It's a crime to our city that we allow systems like this to exist and if we are going to talk about steps to improve our lives in the city, there needs to be rules about what businesses can and can't do in the downtown.

In an industry completely void of legislation and guidance, package transportation companies are not being viewed as anything more than a necessity that exists independent of the rest of the city and business world. This is wrong, they are huge polluters of not only our air but also our traffic space and minds. They exist because we are afraid of change and not because change wouldn't be good.

If we were to look at all deliveries done downtown by car and transition them to bike couriers and cargo bikes, what would that do? I'll tell you what, it would create a new visual landscape of able bodied and motivated individuals interested in making their city cleaner. It would help the bike courier community who are an abused sub section of the city and are desperately in need of regulated wages, regulated working conditions and support. It would force more money into a corrupt section of the economy and bring light to the injustice that exists within all courier companies. It would finally encourage a transition in thought where we could think outside of the car culture we live in and maybe start thinking more creatively.

More Food Delivery by Bike

When I look around my city I can't help but notice how inconsistent our reputation is with our actions. Yes, we have BIXI, an immense network of bike paths and more bike shops than one could count, but are these things actually what we need in the bike conversation? Or do we need to start looking further than that and encourage restaurants to transport their food by bike?
If you look at New York, almost every pizzeria has a fleet of couriers hustling their cheesy bread across town and to this day, I have never seen a courier transport a pizza. Why not? What's stopping people from doing that here? What would happen if every restaurant who chose to transport their food by bike was given a small government allowance to pay part of the biker's wage as part of the sustainable development of the city? This is not rocket science yet somehow we aren't doing it.
Meals would be delivered faster and once again, our visual landscape would be improved by people acting as ambassadors for a cleaner city.

Bike Delivery in Other Areas of the City

Having spent hours cycling streets from Pointes-Aux-Trembles to Beaconsfield I can tell you that bike delivery can exist everywhere. I'm not just talking about the guy who delivers cigarettes and beer from your corner store,I'm talking about a strong business delivering packages of all sorts. There's no reason that there can not be businesses using couriers in Point Claire, Anjou or Lasalle. In fact, these types of initiatives would help generate an economy that has not yet been tapped. Everyone needs things delivered whether it be medication from the pharmacy or legal documents to your lawyer. What if we were to encourage these types of initiatives? This would not only help people think more creatively about bikes in general but could also give jobs to people who can't find other work. 

Challenge Me

What all this comes down to is that I don't think we can wait any more to have this discussion. I think that change needs to happen right now and if we don't start thinking about the economic development of bikes, we are missing out on unused people power. We have the ressources and people available to do it, we just need to come together and finally do it.

There is only so much I can write about this so I encourage you to challenge what I am saying here. What don't I get? What am I missing? Are these ideas really crazy or can we move on with this and see what happens?

I've been talking to a lot of people in recent days and I see almost definitive evidence that something like my company Cycle-Bird should exist again and should be taken seriously by everyone as a part of the overall plan of Montreal's sustainable development. If you are a business or an individual who wants to support such an initiative, email me info@thecyclebird.com and I will let you know the progress of this conversation.

If we can get enough people to talk about what deliveries need to be done,  I'll help make it happen with what ever knowledge or resources I have and transport Montreal into a whole new level of what it means to have a "bike friendly city". 

Challenge me, I can assure you it'll be fun

Twitter: @thecyclebird
Email: info@thecyclebird.com









Thursday, March 21, 2013

The Lantern Podcast- Launching March 25th

On March 25th I'll be launching my new podcast with OMEN and Taylor Tower .
The Lantern will be a venue to explore creative ideas and projects in order to help Montreal's artistic community.
Check out www.lanternpodcast.com after March 25th for our first episode!
Follow Lantern Podcast on Twitter: https://twitter.com/lanternpodcast

Sunday, March 10, 2013

Interaction


You know what's strange about interaction? It's that it isn't a fruit that can be picked.
It's never absolute.

It's something that mangles the soul with a hot mess of baggage and superficiality and tells you to listen and respond to all the wrong things at once.

Like a car wreck, it's in the moment where everything collides that you know something is happening
What that thing is will only be decided once the bodies have rolled around in the heaps of metal a few times and the forms become formless.

Why do we do this to ourselves? Why do we allow ourselves to get in to the car and drive in the traffic of everyday interaction when we know full well that a seat belt can only do so much to save us.

The whiplash, the cuts, the bruises, they all appear as if to mock our attempts.

It's in those moments that I both dread and love what I am,

I am human, isn't it beautiful?

Watch me go.



Sunday, February 24, 2013

Making Sense of Something Seemingly Random

Above are drawings I did by randomly spraying paint onto a piece of paper and then drawing overtop the color with a pen to make some faces.

This process, even though it may seem totally random, could be a good representation of how you should approach living.
Hear me out....
As I've said many times before, I think that we are all dealing with similar struggles of identity and purpose, and when you start getting into it, it almost seems like a bottomless pit of crap and scaryness. At times I feel this way but sometimes, I feel nice and warm inside by one simple line, 
"It is what it is."

Why does this give me comfort? Because when you really think about life and how we are all connected by the fact that we exist, the rest will come as it should, because that's what it's supposed to do.
What I mean by this is, there is much to be gained by analyzing our existence, but a lot can be gained by existing now and realizing that is all that will ever be. To think about tomorrow is no less crazy than thinking you can fly. There is truth in everything that is now- the pain, the love, the gut feelings, the strength, the weakness- all of it is truth and it is what it is.

When i think about what I've done above, I see the struggle of life. Nine figures created from nine different sprays. Were the images created by me, or did they already exist and I helped them appear? I did not spend time thinking about the composition or the shape or the expression on each face, I let the spray decide what was going to happen. I let the form form itself and didn't get caught up on what I thought it should be. Life is most appreciated when you let it happen. Who you are is who you are and there is nothing you can do other than expose it and embrace it. 

These figures are connected not by their differences but by their participation in the act of existence. They all exist on the paper and their truth is in their paper-ness not their spraypaint-ness.



Friday, February 8, 2013

the shoreline

As someone who has always had issues with identity, it comes like a breath of fresh air when I see that I've made a little bit of progress and feel a little bit more certain in my skin. We all seem to be sharing this struggle and although we all may be dealing with it differently, I think that the problems remain the same. 

Who am I? What should I do? Where do I belong? These are all questions we encounter in our daily quest to internal peace and I believe there are answers out there for us all.
It's not an easy journey, but I can't think of any bigger reward than finding out who you are.

My artistic journey has brought me to this point in time where I am interested in exploring my own personal experiences in the hopes of empowering others to look within for answers.

This first spoken word piece entitled "A Walk on the Beach of my Mind" is my first project that tries to add a bit of dimension to the human struggle- giving it a place that it can be explored rather than imagining it as a dark hole to get lost in.

This project will be ongoing and will involve audio, video, sculpture, written letters, photographs and illustrations. I hope that you can take this journey with me and maybe gain a bit of perspective on what ever struggles you may have.

You have the ability to change your mind and opportunity awaits at every step of the way.

-Cam









Friday, February 1, 2013

A conversation with Identity


Identity- "Hello, my name is Identity."
Cam- "Oh hello Identity, where did you come from?"

I- "I come from a place that is similar to here but not the same. It's strange here with you."
C- "Oh really? Can you describe your home to me? I only know this world. "

I- "I come from a world where I am accepted."
C- "Accepted? What does that mean? "

I- "I am me, and it's okay. "
C- "Oh. Well that's strange. You see, people here are only valuable if they can make money. Do you know what money is?"

I- "Money? Yes. I've heard terrible things."
C- "No no, it's not terrible, it helps us decide which ideas are good and which ideas are bad. It's a great system. How do you rate ideas in your world if you don't have money?

I- "All ideas are valuable, it's part of the process. Do you know about the process?"
C- "No not at all, what is it?"

I- "There's no final product or decision to stop at. It's an ongoing journey that we all participate in. Ideas build off one another in order to create more ideas. We don't focus on anything else. We just create more and more thoughts to play with. Our goal is to never reach our goal."
C- "Oh how strange. So how do you survive?"

I- "We don't survive, we live. We don't have the same problems that you have here because we don't arrive at anything. We feed ourselves and each other with the harvest of our minds."
C- "I'd love to understand the space you live in because most people here I'm sure would like to live where you are. It's not easy though, we can't seem to work up the courage to leave behind what we own. It's property that paralyzes us and keeps us grounded and safe here. It's nice here."

I- "You do not need to leave here in order to arrive where I am. You are where you are and it is the same place that I am."
C- "What?"

I- "No one lives outside of true reality. You do not breath a different air that I breath or drink a different water that I drink. You just are. The train in your mind can only go to one station, the choice is yours if you want to get off. The journey is only as far as you make it."

..... to be continued....


Creativity haunts me like a smile of a beautiful woman on the street